Wednesday, December 31, 2008

Introducing...

Gao En Fang!
Oh the Years I've waited for you my sweet daughter Madeline En Fang!!!


Born May 18, 2008! So Young! 7 1/2 months!

She is in the Gaozhou SWI, and is Active and a deep sleeper!

When I come down a little bit from cloud 9 I'll write more...but right now, I am just head over heels in love and can't to much but stare at her little photos and feel my heart grow!

Tuesday, December 30, 2008

In Less than 11 hours...

I will see My daughter's face for the first time.

Today has been a mix of emotions- trying not to focus, anxiety grabbing my heart, and excitement when I think about tomorrow and seeing that FedEx person with the magic referral packet for ME at long last.

I recieved a very scary phone call from my agency mid afternoon saying my FedEx account number was not working. We quickly determined that they had just added an extra digit, but it was temporarily heart stopping thinking I'd have to wait until Friday to receive my referral!

We have had frantic emails and calls between several people in our travel group today as we all anxiously await the big news tomorrow!
I have so many questions that will be answered tomorrow! How old will she be? Where will she be? Will she have hair? Will she be in an Orphanage or Foster care? Will she look happy or sad? Most of all, what does she look like?

What does this little girl that I have loved for more than 3 years look like and where is she? And how long has she been waiting for me?

I don't know how I will sleep tonight...

The Call

But not quite THE CALL that everyone talks about!
YES, I got "THE CALL"- telling me that my agency does in fact have a referral in hand! (!!!) But it is their policy not to give any information over the phone, so they were calling to say "This is THE CALL, where do you want your FedEx package sent???" And, to let me know they did not make the fedex cutoff time for today, and it will go out in FedEx on Tuesday.

HOW can I make tomorrow fly by in the blink of an eye???

Monday, December 29, 2008

Waiting!

On Pins and needles!

Referrals are arriving in the US TODAY. My agency translates fully before sharing any information with us, so the soonest I can expect to receive my referral is Wednesday I believe. I am anxiously watching my phone though, JUST in case they say they will fedex it today....

I cannot believe that after 3 years of waiting, this is really finally happening!!!

Sunday, December 21, 2008

December Referrals are final....

And I am NEXT!!!

That's right...the "Little Box" on the CCAA website has officially been updated to say referrals of families Logged in through February 23rd 2006 have been sent, which means, with a Log in Date of February 24 2006, I am, without a possible doubt.....NEXT!!!

Now we wait for the referral rumors to start coming!

I am looking forward to a very exciting 2009!

Friday, December 05, 2008

Another Village Welcome Home!

Bright and early Wednesday morning we all met up at the airport for another Village welcome home for the newest little one home from China!

Sadie was dressed in her holiday finery to meet her new little cousin, but was taking it all in stride, kicking back in the stroller and playing with a balloon (which she can now say by the way, and is INCREDIBLY cute when she says it!!)
Mary's brother & sister in law and nephews, and some other friends were there as well. Here is the new glowing Mama Mary...And a little bit stunned looking Emme Qian Hui!
She is just beautiful! She definitely has the "deer in the headlights" kind of look, but after such an ordeal, who wouldn't? Within just a few minutes of arriving she was laughing and even played a little bit with Sadie!
Emme was curious but made sure Mama was close by...she looked pretty comfortable hanging out against Mary's leg while taking it all in!
Sharon just started a new job that same day, so she wasn't able to make it, but everyone else did make it! We sure missed you Sharon! Below: Me, Heidi & Sadie, Mary with Emme, Cindy, Dumpling (Standing) and "Little Pink" (I've decided this will be her Blog name!) in the baby Carrier!
Imagine, TWO new little village girls in less than 2 weeks! And if we add Sadie, THREE new little village girls in less than 6 months! It's truly amazing, and we are all truly lucky this holiday season to have such joy in our lives! Now if I could ask for just a tiny bit more joy in the form of my referral.......

Monday, December 01, 2008

Could this be the week?

Rumors are pointing to the CCAA making it through the 23rd and possibly to the 27th....with an LID of 2/24, that puts me in range of maybe getting my referral in this round!
I had two rather crazy "ladybug moments" last Wednesday. The first came when I went at 7 am to pick up my turkey- I had ordered a free range turkey for the first time this year. When I went to get it, there was a sign saying if you bought a Diestel farm turkey you could have a free 5 lb bag of potatoes & a box of chicken broth. I went up to the front of the store where the potatoes were only to find the brand was "Ladybug Potatoes". No kidding. I have never seen or heard of this brand before, but here they were- my free potatoes were "Ladybug" brand!
I smiled and thought, REFERRALS! Then, as I dragged myself back to reality I thought, COINCIDENCE!

So I come to work and it's one of my employee's last day before her maternity leave. She received a fedex package with a gift from a colleague of ours in another state. She opened it at her desk and was reading the package (She is Korean and She didn't understand what it was at first) so she said, "what is this?" and started reading "Measure your child and mark with the enclosed velcro attached ladybug and turtle markers..."

Of course I jumped when she said Ladybug (As I hadn't seen what she was opening) and said, "what did you say?" My other employees know enough by now to know what the Chinese adoption community thinks about ladybugs, so they both stopped too and said, "did you say ladybug??" I had already told them the story of my 7 am potato ladybug encounter, so having this one happen just a few hours later was quite a surprise!

Coincidence? Fortune Telling? Who knows. I guess we'll all find out in the next week or so.

But I do know that even if I'm not already matched with my daughter, that my file is probably already in the same ROOM as my daughter's file. And that, is a pretty crazy idea right now. That at the end of this long 3 year wait, it's finally happening...I am finally going to become a Mama.

Wednesday, November 19, 2008

Introducing the newest member of the Village!

After a 3 week process on the other side of the country, Dumpling finally got a new little sister today! Dumpling and one of her Aunties had to return home a week ago while Cindy stayed with the new baby until the paperwork was finished, during which time I stayed with her and took her to school each day. She was a super trooper about the whole experience- 9 days without Mommy when you are 3 1/2 is IMMENSE! She held up quite well considering this is definitely the longest she has been without Mommy. Skype helped a bit as well, so thank goodness for that!

I picked Dumpling up at School today at noontime, and we went out to the airport- introducing, Baby.....? Hmmm.....this is the part I hadn't thought of yet! I will come up with a Blog name for this little one! I was thinking "Skype" since that is where I first saw her...although Dumpling calls her "My Baby", but that may be too confusing when my daughter comes home and I am referring to "my baby" and "MY BABY" (Dumpling's sister), so I'm going to have to work on it for a bit. For right now, let's just call her Dumpling's Mei Mei!
Mama Cindy said she slept like a champ all night and throughout the flight! What a lucky Mama to have a 3 week old sleep so soundly!
When Dumpling and Auntie Connie came home, Mei Mei was still in the hospital and Dumpling had only been able to look at her, so sitting in the airport was her first time to hold her baby sister.
The newly enlarged Family! Just in time for Thanksgiving!
Dumpling & I made a sign for the airport- I made the sign, Dumpling decorated it with stickers- good Auntie/Dumpling teamwork!

Tuesday, November 04, 2008

Rumors

There is a site called "Rumor Queen" which is populated by thousands of waiting families, and it's never busier than this time of the month, right before referrals....

The latest "word on the street" via Rumor Queen is referrals may have been mailed. Two agencies are expecting packages but don't know for sure they are referrals. One has a log in group on Feb 16, and one has a log in group on Feb 17. The Spanish Rumor queen says there are only a few days included in this batch. Two other agencies say that February 20th is included in this group.

While this may sound like a whole lot of random/mismatched news, it's the kind of news we live for month after month, and for whatever reason, keeps many of us waiting families from completely losing our sanity! My log in date is February 24, so it's unlikely I'll be included in this batch, but all the same referral time is exciting because at least I know how far they are getting!

At this point I'm hoping they get through Feb 20th in this batch. If they do, I'm almost (ALMOST) a "sure thing" for December. Bring on the referrals!

Friday, October 31, 2008

The Matching Room

Each month as we close in on Referral week, thousands of families start to stalk Rumor Queen's website for news of "Matching" happening and "Referrals" being mailed. If you are outside the Chinese Adoption community, those words might not hold a lot of meaning. But for those of us waiting 30...31...32..33 months for our children, we could recite the bulk of the process in our sleep...

When a dossier is sent to China it is logged into their system, and it is logged in on a certain date. Your date record is called your LOG IN DATE, or LID. This is the order in which they match families. Between your dossier being logged in and the matching room, Dossiers basically just gather dust from what I understand. With the wait stretching past 3 years, that can be a whole lot of dust!

Once the CCAA is finally up to your place in line (Held by your LID), your Dossier is either moved into the Matching room, or moved to the desks of the people responsible for each agency in the matching room.
Each color coded stack represents dossiers from a different agency. Imagine, these are just dossiers in the matching room!
Once a family's dossier is in the matching room, that is where the magic begins! They can use any sort of information in your file or physical characteristics to match families with children. Sometimes it's a birthdate and an anniversary, or birthdates, or a similar look in the eyes. Whatever criteria they use to match, Every single parent I've ever met has told me that the child they were matched with was the perfect child for their family.
After you have been "MATCHED" with a child, the referrals are sent to waiting families around the world. The referral tells you the name of your child, how old they are, what province they are in, the circumstances of their arrival at the orphanage, a daily schedule of your child's eating and sleeping habits, some brief information about your child's personality, and most important, Photos!!!
It sends chills through me to think that my file could be in the matching room right now, waiting to be matched with my daughter in just one short month.


Ladybug Sighting...!

According to the chinese Adoption Community, if you see a ladybug, it means referrals are on their way...
Today families brought their little ones in for trick or treating, so I had to snap a picture of this little one....
Right now the rumors are that the CCAA are matching families, and that referrals will cover February 20th, 2006...that would put me as nearly a "sure thing" for a December referral...we'll see! Cross your crossables!

Thursday, October 09, 2008

Vacation in LA

Last Saturday Jeremy & I left for our first vacation together in LA. We were off to visit his brother & sister in law & their son Little D, and enjoy a little bit of warm California Sun!
After a pretty shaky flight (wobbling left to right on the way up, and kind of a severe "upwards" swing when we thought we were preparing to land...) we made it and Jess & Grant & Little D picked us up at the airport.
In the afternoon after a yummy lunch, we did a bit of LA touring around- including these two sights: The house belonging to the original creator of The Adams Family original comic strip:
And of course, the Brady Bunch House!
On Sunday we all went for a hike, I think it was through Laurel Canyon...Little D was sleeping in the stroller, so I managed to get the camera balanced on top of the stroller for a group pic: L-R is Grant, Jessica, Jeremy & I.
Then it was up to the HOLLYWOOD sign!!! Very exciting, but seriously, I loved the little signs almost as much as the big sign:
Okay no, it's not as cool as the real thing...fortunately I got some pics of the real Hollywood sign too!
Jeremy & I posing with the sign...
And Jessica & Grant holding a squirming Little D!
Grant & Jessica are both very very sweet! Both seem just enthralled at the very aspect of being parents- they are both actors so I have a feeling Little D has a very entertaining life!
To be continued...see below!

Los Angeles- Part 2

It was so so hot in LA this week compared with home- the sun was great but a little bit of a shocker on a few days! Little D spent some time running around in just his diaper to beat the heat, here we are goofing around with the camera:
Jeremy & I went to Huntington Gardens in Pasadena a few days ago. We were both a little surprised by the admission and didn't know what to expect, but understood the reason for the price after we saw it all! The garden was actually multiple gardens- a desert garden, lily ponds, a Japanese Garden, an Australian Garden, a Chinese Garden, and a couple of buildings with permanent and rotating art on display. It was really quite amazing!
I had to photograph the etched bamboo- I figured it would go with my Asia etched bamboo photograph collection!

There were a couple of trees we called the "Dr Seuss Trees"- this was my favorite:
And this was pretty Seuss-ish as well...
Some amazing and prickly looking cactus...
Again...as if I didn't have enough reason to be afraid of the ball, here is yet another reason...quite beautiful, but those balls are dangerous!
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And what better to go with my etched bamboo photograph collection than a sign prohibiting such an act?
The bonsai were a favorite for both Jeremy & I.
This guy looked like he could have been in the garden at Versailles.
In fact, I better check my photos, because I might just have the same pick FROM Versailles...
What a cutie- Little D loved pushing the buttons on the computer...
I had such a warm welcome into the family from Jessica, I hope she'll forgive me for this pic and not send me packing- I just thought it was a cute pic of she & Little D!
Uncle Jeremy getting some sweet nephew time in...
Little D loved those big glasses, although it was probably mostly because we were drinking from them...
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Jeremy & I went to Venice Beach for a little walk on Tuesday and had lunch along the boardwalk. We were serenaded by a Johnney Cash cover band while we were finishing up our lunch.
they were cute- it was an awfully hot day to be out there playing, but I guess the Californians are more accustomed to the heat...
The view down Venice beach...
After Venice Beach we went to NBC to meet some friends of Jeremy's and we had tickets to the Tonight show! The guests were Bill Mahr, Dan Norton & (so exciting!) James Taylor! It was really fun- I'd never been to a live taping before & Tim & Pea took us on a little tour to see some of the studios beforehand, including telemundo (the spanish station) and some of the control rooms. We said hello to the weather guy and some of the control room guys as well- everyone seemed so nice! The show was quite a lot of fun and we went for Japanese food with Tim & Pea afterwards.
On Wednesday I had to fly back to Portland as I'm out of town again this weekend to Asia. Getting a little last minute cuddles with Little D before heading out. Jeremy took me to the airport as he was staying a few days more then driving back up. This trip tomorrow is one trip that I can't wait to get home from! This asia trip is not such a long trip, but I will be happy to get home again because Jeremy will be home from LA.

Life is good.

Wednesday, October 01, 2008

Life Comes at you...FAST

Can't believe it's been a month since I posted. It's also been a month since I've read many blogs....my life has taken a wonderful and exciting turn as motherhood draws close!

Within our village, we are watching babies come (Mary!), babies just out of reach (questionable success of a domestic adoption), and babies just about to reach us (mine!)....our little village is growing and changing! We've recently run into a family we met a year ago and were so excited for the reunion!

I just ordered the first "Bum Genius 3.0" cloth diaper to take a look but I'm pretty sure that is the way to go...those and "G Diapers" for when I'm traveling. I'm desperately trying to locate daycare options! And hoping expecting a referral in December. Now that it's getting pretty close, it's almost like watching it happen in slow motion... I see it happening and while I know it is happening, it's all very surreal!

And now my life has just been turned on it's head in the most amazing sort of way!

Life is Good. Life is Amazing. How can you not grin ear to ear every day?

More pictures soon, just need to find some time to edit & post...

Monday, September 01, 2008

Circus Barelli, Zwei

Back to the circus! I have no idea if I spelled "zwei" correct in German, I think it means "2". possibly.

This circus had more camels than horses. seriously, MORE camels. Camels with two humps, campels with one hump, brown camels and white camels...there were camels and more to go around...
And there was a German clown. Actually there were two, but this one was kind of a favorite. What's not to love about a clown in red plaid with a matching red nose? Except for the fact that I couldn't understand anything he said, he was rather amusing!
And yes, there were some horses along with the camels...
And the star of the show (or maybe that was just in my eyes)- the baby giraffe, Hans. (This is the name he has been given in the last couple days, to the best of my knowledge his name is not really actually Hans...)
And the pretty cute zebras, I know that the giraffe was quite young, and I think one of the zebras was as well...

The "trapeze" lady #2- she was pretty good, but I was more enthralled with the great shadows she was casting on the side of the tent. No, this one did not have a sparkly diamond studded bra...
And *this* is who you have all been waiting for! Francois! The Performing Hippopotomous!!!

Actually to be truthful, Francois didn't do much. But seriously, when you weigh as much as Francois and have as large teeth as Francois, you kind of get to run the show- your way. The fact that she wandered in, rounded the ring, stood on the round stand in the middle and tossed an apple back and forth (by letting it roll back out of her mouth) was impressive enough to me. Good job Francois...

These guys were one of those more kind of "sad" acts- you just got the idea that they had this romantic notion to run away to the cirucs and wonder why they ever did. Maybe not- but they had these totally plastered on fake smiles and I just kinda felt bad- like maybe they really wished they were performing about anywhere else besides this little one ring family circus in a half filled tent in a little back woods town in Bavaria.

I loved the paintings on the side of the truck. Very old school circus, with the exception of the tiger holding a coke and a sprite.